When I was 8 years of age, my mom & dad lost their rights & I was officially placed into the foster care system.
I remember some wonderful memories from my childhood, but most of the memories are not truly good.
The unpleasant thoughts & feelings plagued my mind every single afternoon. When I was a teenager, I wanted to end my life & I thought about suicide on different occasions. I was hoping to run away from my property & pretend that I was someone else entirely. I was looking for a way out of my life & drugs became the answer entirely. Some people in my college were hanging out drinking beers after college classes were out & I joined them. The people I was with and I rapidly started doing lots of different drugs & I had a major meth addiction. I went to rehab a couple of times. I didn’t have any family members or more than 2 friends, so there genuinely wasn’t anyone helping me with my mental health, until I found a job working for an older woman. The outdated lady wanted to sell her property & needed someone to help take care of the location. I worked 3 nights a week & the outdated lady & I talked fairly often. It wasn’t long before the outdated lady provided to smoke a marijuana joint with me. To be perfectly honest, it was the first time I ever tried marijuana. I was always into more dangerous drugs in the past. I didn’t know what to expect & I was honestly alarmed by the calming & wonderful sensation I had after smoking the marijuana joint. I felt more relaxed & confident then I had in quite some time.