If I’m to be honest, I’ve never been good at taking time or resources for myself.
That’s just a fact, and one I’ve been proactively attempting to change.
It’s as though I have a default behavior that puts most people else’s needs ahead of my own. My local cannabis dealer is helping myself and others to find the things that help bring delight and joy to my life. It’s odd that it took this long for myself and others to realize that I’m only important to myself. But I was raised to serve the family. And then, when I had a family of my own, those needs just came first. I don’t mind all that as I loved raising my boys. The stress with my parents and siblings is what I need to separate from. I never even used recreational marijuana until the guys were in school. Whenever I had been handed cannabis products, I demured because I wasn’t so sure how I’d act. And being totally in control was all the rage then. But I finally gave in on a girls weekend with my friends. My pal had some hybrid strains that both of us could smoke however it was the cannabis edibles that I found to be the most lovely. I liked that with the edibles, the feeling came on slow and sort of crept up on me. And I was just so relaxed and finally aware of my feeling and thoughts. It was honestly an epiphany. So now that the local cannabis spot has opened up a cannabis cafe, I make sure I schedule a drink and a shared edible with a dear friend at least once a week.